sleep, Bellingen breakfast and being proactive

wow, the first morning that we have woken up and realised we slept all the way through the night.... the jet lag is finally going.... yipeeee

a breakfast in Bellingen.... it is a bit of a drive but totally worth it. Just to be outside, looking at the world from our sleepy eyes and realising that it really will get better every day

we talk today about being proactive, and seeking out new opportunities...... it is our future, and we can design it.... I think it's really important to remember that

just being, birds and an opportunity

in the past few months there has been so much rushing, so much stress and so much work, it is hard to get used to just 'being' and that being ok. But today, we reminded ourselves, hey it's ok..... just be...

the birds in the garden are so loud, it feels like they are welcoming us back

an opportunity, a new path that comes with some built in support..... nice to see

friends reaching out, surf at Arrawarra and dolphins

lots of calls, and emails from friends just checking in and making sure we're ok. We are very blessed.

we're soooo tired but we drive down to the point and surf at Arrawarra in the sunshine.

Halfway through, a big pod of dolphins cruise by and surf with us....life isn't so bad :)

midnight snack, together at 3am and Sunday papers

ahhhh the joys of jet-lag...... we sit together at midnight eating raisin toast in our pyjamas

and again, at 3am, but hey, at least we're together :)

Jeff gets up and walks over to the store and to buy me the Sunday papers. A really thoughtful thing to do.

home, shopping mission and it's ok to let go

turning the key and remembering that this is our place, we made this..... it is our home.

a stupidly jet-lagged, early mission to the supermarket turned into half of hour of laughter

ok, we're here, we've made it, it's ok to let go and just be

Singapore airport, hawaiian pizza and familiar roads

I love Singapore airport..... and I just realised why...... they have carpets.... no, thats not what I love, but I think they are the reason for the peace and quiet in the terminal. I swear it's the most peaceful airport I've ever been to. Well, thats my explanation anyhows.

It's late, we're feeling jaded and hungry...... so we seek familiarity..... ahhhh Hawaiian pizza.... thank you

It has been a while, but these roads are familiar, and that feels nice.

thankful, anonymous travel and mindless tv

I am thankful for this opportunity to start again, to learn from my mistakes and find a new path to happiness

travel is so anonymous..... from the moment you step off a plane, and join the crowd moving in and around the airport, you step into an anonymous world. Sometimes that feels nice.

On a long-haul flight, when the hours stretch ahead of you like an endless motorway in the sky, you can take some pleasure in sinking in and watching some mindless tv, knowing that there is nothing more useful you can do with your time right now.

a great club sandwich, sleep and surrounded by love

ok, so sometimes you've got to strip it right back and take stock of the really simple things that are making you happy right now. Like the super delicious club sandwich I had, it was magnificent.

sleep, much needed, much deserved and much appreciated

even as the miles between us grew, I felt surrounded by love

rain, closure and soup with Alex

I love the rain.... it certainly has its place. There are awesome days when the sky is so blue and the sun is shining so bright, but there are others when the sound of the falling rain feels so right.

some closure today..... lots of sorting out, throwing out and re-organising. You know me, I love that.

Alex messaged me in the middle of the day inviting me round for soup.... what a perfect thing to do on a day like today. I really liked that the soup also came with a hug.

some answers, home and a friendly face

more meetings and more questions, but this time there were also some clear answers and clear direction. Gotta love that.

Home, I think the older I get the more I appreciate it.

We met someone new today, who surprised me with their compassion. A really friendly face in the storm.

fresh start, Ali and 50 First Dates

everyone has a chance for a fresh start, in some form or another. It gives you hope and motivates you to keep going, and keep smiling.

it is at times like these where you feel so incredibly blessed to have such phenomenal friends. Ali, is just that, phenomenal.

Tonight I watched 50 First Dates, I've seen it a zillion times but for some reason I love it. Maybe it's the sunshine, maybe it's the Hawaiian feel to it or maybe that it's just the fact that love conquers all. Gotta love a happy ending :)

through leaves, flowers and Gordie

I read something, years ago about 'through leaves'. It inspired me so much that it has become something I really believe in..... anyway, today, whilst walking through some autumn leaves I was reminded of it, and that made me happy.

Flowers delivered from friends...... bright, colourful and full of love. So grateful.

Gordie, one of those old friends that you love dearly, think of often but rarely spend enough time with. Felt his love today xx

options, a swim in the ocean and my hero

so it turns out, no matter how bad things are, when you look at them deeply, and with some perspective, you have more options than you realise

we made the most of the sunshine and went down to the beach and jumped in the sea. The ocean has an amazing quality to refresh the mind as well as the body.

Jeff has shown his real self to me so much in the past few days and weeks, and I feel an even stronger connection to him and a real sense of his strength and love.

a funny movie, a normal moment and a job application

tonight we watched a funny movie.... it was goofy and silly and it made us laugh heaps

there was a point during the film when I looked at Jeff smiling and enjoyed a moment of normality

a job application, a little ray of light and a new pathway

appropriate weather, packing and ginger flapjacks

today the sky was dark grey and full of clouds, but I was grateful for them. It seemed appropriate and gave me exactly what I needed.

Ahhhh packing again, one day I'll look back on this blog and maybe find that my views on packing have changed, but for now, I still find it therapeutic.

I have no idea why, but I've been craving ginger flapjacks..... and so today, I spent some time measuring ingredients, stirring, mixing and tasting. Yum.... simple pleasures

some answers, my Dad and our lovely accountant

finally, a little clarity and hope and some answers. Finding an expert always helps :)

my Dad, my hero, my best friend. A wise and kind person who will be your rock when you need it the most.

our accountant has shown remarkable compassion in the last few days...... isn't it interesting to learn more about other peoples' stories, we're all a lot more alike than we realise

boat, bravery and family

a boat ride, that signifies much more than the physical journey from one place to another. Amongst all the turbulence, it felt like we were going in the right direction.

I look at my husband and admire his bravery

back in the arms of family, who seem to know exactly what to say and do. Their love and support is incredible.

sleep. relief and awesome Elsie

we all know how important sleep is, and I think that during stressful times, it becomes even more important. I am grateful that I have the opportunity to rest.

in a mix of emotions, I can definitely feel relief. I know this is hard, but I know we made the right decision.

some friends just stand out don't they. Elsie is one of those, always there, always ready to support, love and give phenomenal advice. She's amazing and I am so lucky to have her.

Eat, Pray, Love, a safe place and together

I flicked on the tv, and the movie 'Eat, Pray, Love' was on. Bizarre coincidence or a little nudge from the universe ? Either way, it was the perfect film to watch, full of beauty and wise words.

a safe place where we can create a temporary bubble, and just focus on looking after each other

wow, we're in a really tough place right now, and I am super thankful that we are together. I cannot imagine having to deal with something like this alone.

a call with our mentor, lost but then found and a decision

sometimes things happen for a reason. Tonight, I was on sending an instant message on skype to our old business mentor in Aus. It must have been about 3am over there so I was surprised when he replied immediately. He said he couldn't sleep for some reason and wandered downstairs for a drink when he saw the message pop up on his screen. And so, at 3am aussie time we proceeded to have a much needed coaching call. They say when the student is ready, the teacher appears.

A horrible situation turned out to be a real dose of perspective. We were lost there for a few hours, and when we found one another again, it made us realise what was really important.

tonight we came to a decision, probably the hardest decision we have ever had to make, but definitely the right one. I'm proud of our courage.

haven at home, cleaning and meatballs

our little apartment is a quiet space that can act like a retreat if you need it to be.

cleaning is a little like cooking, not anywhere near as fun but it is a simple task that you can decide to do that feels pretty damn good once you've finished

delicious meatballs for dinner with a super yummy tomato sauce, its been forever since we had these

spaghetti, bubble and me/Jeff teamwork

One thing (there are actually zillions) that I love about cooking is that it is a constant, dependable and enjoyable activity that you can always achieve. Does that make sense ? What I mean is that no matter how horrible your day, or whatever your circumstances, you can get in the kitchen, put your heart and soul into cooking something delicious, and sit down with someone you love for a good meal.

creating a bubble is sometimes the best form of defence

we're a solid team, and the best proof of that is when you have to pull together in hard times. We're doing that now

life after this, dinner at Chez Monette and forgetting

we spoke today about the future, about 'life after this'. It felt kinda wierd, but mainly it felt really good to see that this situation isn't permanent.

we had an impromptu dinner date at Chez Monette, eating yummy food and talking about love and life. Remembering what it is that is important to us.

sometimes its nice to just forget about everything, just for a moment and just be still. It's not very easy to do, but I think I managed it today.

shorts, a quiet spot and surrounded by love

today I wore a pair of shorts I bought about 6 years ago. Jeff said, 'wow, I remember those, they remind me of when we were travelling in Mexico'. For whatever reason, I suddenly felt pretty happy that I was wearing a little piece of that awesome trip.

sometimes you need to find a place to go, and just be. I did that today.

friends and family seem to know when to reach out and hold you up instinctively.

honest conversation, best friend and feeling super blessed

sometimes you just have to let it all out and see what happens next. Being honest is always the right thing to do.

My husband is my best friend, I can see that so clearly and I feel it so strongly.

Despite all the chaos, craziness and risk around me, I feel incredibly blessed to have such love around me. I am very lucky indeed.

the most phenomenal parents ever, long swim, and love & support

I can't really explain what today was like in normal words, but I'll try. It was a surreal day, filled with so much love and support.

My folks wrapped me up in their love and took care of me. I don't think it matters how old you are, sometimes you need to feel that unconditional love from your parents and to be told 'hey, it's going to be ok'

I swam in the ocean twice today, once with Ali laughing and focusing on what is good about life, and the second time far far out to sea, behind Rocco tower in water that was so calm it looked like oil, and so blue it looked like the Caribbean. The beach was deserted and the sun was blazing. The whole thing was pretty surreal, I literally breathed in every minute of it. I could have swum forever.

I went to bed tonight with such a full heart. Incredible.

yikes I got on the boat, smooth crossing and home SWEET home

a mission home that meant a very speedy drive and constant phone calls to Condor to see if someone could squeeze me on the boat... it wasn't until (literally) the last minute that I was allowed on, phew what a relief

the crossing home was gorgeous, so smooth, so sunny and filled me with a sense of calm, and set me off wondering what the universe has in store for us next

wow, sometimes arriving home just blows me away, like all my senses are heightened and my family home stands out for the beautiful sanctuary that it is

Jeffo's manifestation, a burst of excitement and a blissful dinner at La Bodega

wow, today, something that Jeff had been manifesting for months just seemed to land in front of him. Amazing

His good news travelled fast and suddenly there was a burst of excitement and activity.....

we had a very late dinner at La Bodega.... on the harbours edge, with the twinkling lights on the boats, and a warm breeze in the air. It was blissful

green lights all the way, almost there and little escape

a song came on the radio today called 'green lights all the way'. I turned it up loud and tried to manifest it.

we're so close now, I can see light at the end of the tunnel.

I've found a little spot, hidden away where I can go and breathe and be in a quiet space.